NOT TO MENTION.
The pressure. The pressure to get page views and comments and engagement. Honestly? I don't care too much about that right now. I took a long social media semi-hiatus. I was still on social media but I was barely looking. Then I decided that my old social media handles all harbor too much angst, sadness, nostalgic memories that give me anxiety rather than the warm fuzzies.
So I made new ones. New Twitter, new Instagram, new Tumblr. All the same derivation of my first name, middle name, and last initial. Clean, simple. Me. Also, a fresh start (one of my favorite things of all time!).
I don't feel like obsessively reading other woman's blogs just to produce a mediocre comment that MIGHT get me a couple of page views or comments back. It feels inauthentic, which is something that I am trying soooooo hard to steer away from. And which is why I'm writing a post like this. Unedited, semi-stream of conscious, Trebuchet font. I don't know who I'm writing to - if anyone at all - or just to myself. My future self.
A couple of life updates:
- I finished applying to grad school.
- I got into the Cambridge grad school program as of two days ago!
- I interviewed for the New Hampshire program on Monday.
- I really loved the NH interview & will find out if I got in there by Friday.
- If I get into the NH school I'm very confused about which program is right for me.
- Really, I just am terrified to live in either Boston or NH, for very different reasons.
And even more fun stuff!
- I'm going to Atlanta, Savannah, and Orlando in FIVE FREAKIN' DAYS.
- I haven't been on a plane in two years, so I may cry with happiness.
- I haven't taken this much consecutive time off in a year and half I believe. I feel that I deserve it.
Travel ignites my restless soul. I have been to Atlanta & Orlando but never to Savannah. I think it's really important to go somewhere once a year (at least!) that you've never been before.
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